My silence here is the result of several factors, the most obvious being that my days and nights are completely filled with Sev. I wouldn't want it any other way, and I'm trying to savor each moment because it really does go by so, so fast.
This blog was initially created as a way to keep distant friends and family informed of the goings on of our little family. After Cayden's birth and death, it naturally became a place to connect with other babylost mamas, remember Cayd, and to share my grief journey. With Buggy's conception and rocky pregnancy, it also became a way to chronicle his journey to life on the outside. Now that Sev is here, I'm a bit confused as to what this blog should be. On the one hand, there is still a desire for us to keep our friends and family caught up on our family, especially now that Sev is here. But I'm hesitant to do so, as I know how difficult it can be for the babylost to be deluged with all things new baby. Yet there will still be many times where the focus is on grieving Cayd, whose absence is more profound now than ever, as we live each day with a little boy and wonder what it would've been like had his big brother lived.
Maybe it's a good thing that I have no time to write, since I'm not sure exactly
what to write.
