Cayden left us yesterday as beautifully as he arrived. We were able to spend our final hour with him in a private room, away from all of the machines and monitors. As we held him, wrapped in a baby blanket knitted by Nana, we told him how much we loved him, cried over him, sang to him, and loved him with all of our aching hearts. Our favorite doc, Dr. Slagle, and our favorite nurses Erin and Thanh(two out of three, Molly was out of town) were there with us, along with his grandparents. Cayden's nurse Thanh actually had the day off but came in to be with us. That's how amazing the CPMC hospital staff is, we love them all so much.
Watching your child die is something no one should ever experience, but we are so grateful that we had two weeks to know and to love Cayden, something most parents with babies with MPS never experience, as they are usually born still. Our belief is that Cayden really wanted to be part of this world, if only for a short time. We're so glad he did.
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I can’t even begin to say how incredibly sorry I am to hear of your loss of Cayden. I am absolutely heart broken for you and your family. The love of a child is unexplainable and I can’t even imagine the pain that you are going through. Know that there are many people out there who are thinking of you.
Love,
Allison Watt (Myss)
Paige and Scott,
It is clear that little boy had more love in two weeks than many have in a lifetime.
We all send our love.
Zece, Lara, Clair, and Louis
Godspeed and sweet dreams, baby Cayden. You will be the perfect guardian angel for your unbelievable parents. Of course, angels are not meant for this world. How wonderful that your parents had a chance to catch and hold you for a little while before you took flight.
Sending our love, tears, prayers and smiles too from Minnesota.
Sarah, Brent & Eddie
Paige and Scott,
Words can't express the heartbreak we feel for you both and your families. Thank you for sharing your journey with Cayden with us...
You are in our thoughts.
Much Love, "cousin" Lisa & Dale
To Cayden's parents:
I have been following your blog recently and just want to tell you how incredibly strong you both are and Cayden is blessed to have such wonderful, loving parents. He will definitely be your angel and will watch over you. Such a blessing that you could spend such loving time together. God bless you and keep you-
Our hearts ache with yours and our eyes weep in sadness. But seeing how much this little boy was loved and will continue to be cherished by you and this extended family of friends fills us our hearts. You have been amazing parents and your strength outstanding. Cayden experienced more love in his short time here than many do in a lifetime. You continue to inspire us all.
Love,
Shant & Ani
Paige and Scott,
I cannot find the words to say how sorry I am with your loss. I thank you both for letting Cayden be part of our family too. I know that Cayden felt your love, as I felt it from a far. Cayden will forever be in our hearts.You are all such an inspiration beyond words.we love you all. The Bermudez family
Paige and Scott,
Two weeks of pure love is a precious thing. Cayden clearly received extraordinary love from you.
Words cannot express the sorrow now that he is gone, but the love from these two weeks will never fade from the hearts of all who were gifted with knowing him.
Virginia
I am deeply sorry for you loss. I have been thinking of all three of you all week. Although I never got the chance to meet him, he will be missed.
Michael
Paige and Scott,
As I read your message (through the tears)know that we are all thinking of you and want to express how sorry we are. I am so sorry. Find strength in family.
I will call Grandma this afternoon.
Love, Jim, Deb, Jessica and Tom
I'm so glad to hear that you were able to have such personal time with Cayden before he passed on and that you are cherishing the time you spent with him. Cayden wanted to be with you as much as you wanted to be with him and your love made his 2 weeks a true gift. The picture of the 3 of you on Facebook is absolutely beautiful.
Thank you for sharing this experience with all of us. It has been so touching and inspiring and it means so much that we could be part of Cayden's life even from a distance. Clearly you touched the staff of the hospital as much as they touched you.
Cayden will be with you always and will live in all of our hearts.
We love you guys! - Lisa and Tim
We love you, and we ache for you. Though we will never have the chance to meet him, we will cherish the memory of the smallest member of our extended family. He's the baby who made parents of our wonderful Paige and Scott.
Love,
Sharon, Steven, Evan and Kaila
Dear Mrs. Hirsch,
I am very sorry about your loss of your beautiful and special baby and my thoughts and prayers are with you and Scott.
Love,
Ben Ribnick, your first grade student.
Paige and Scott,
We are so sorry to hear about your loss. Your love for Cayden and you description of your time together is beautiful and heartwrenching at the same time. You are in out thoughts and our prayers.
Shelley and Josh, MN
Paige and Scott,
We can't stop thinking about you guys and sweet little Cayden. We are utterly heartbroken and wish there was some way to ease your suffering. I do know that your precious little boy couldn't have asked for two more amazing people as his parents... Just look at all that love and encouragement you provided him with. We are so sorry for this profound and devastating loss. You are in our thoughts and prayers. We love you.
-Jenny, Corey and Jakob
I can't begin to say how amazed I have been with the three of you. He was one tough little guy to hang in there as long as he did, and the two of you even tougher, to not be afraid tho love him so much when you knew he would be leaving soon. You are an inspiration to me. I never met Cayden in person, but will never forget him.
You have my love, hugs and prayers
Linda
We grieve with you and send our love. Maggie and Ken Corens
I know baby Cayden will always be in your hearts. As others have said before me, I lack the words to tell you how sad I am for your loss but I am so glad you had this time with your precious little boy.
Love,
Liz (and Tom)
We began this day with a beautiful wedding and ended this day with tears of sadness for your loss. It is another reminder that life is so unpredictable; we should all make the most of every moment as you did with Cayden. We pray that you find some sense of peace and closure.
We love you guys and think about you every day.
Doug, Olga, Cecilia,Marcelo, Paola.
Of course he stayed with you for two weeks; he was born with the strength and grace of his parents.
You've been in our minds and you'll stay there, along with Cayden. I am so thankful you got to be part of his precious life, and that you let it touch all of our hearts too.
Shannon (and Shaun)
Dear Paige and Scott,
There are no words to express the sadness I feel over your loss of your precious baby boy. I wanted you both to know that each day I have followed your heartfelt daily diary of Cayden's life. It is such an amazing tribute to your son. As difficult as it had to be for you, I know it will help you both to treasure Cayden's memory and the special time you shared with him. I hope that you can find some peace and comfort knowing that he was loved and cherished by so many people each day of his short his short but beautiful life here on earth. You and family will remain in my thoughts and prayers as you grieve your loss. Please take care of each other.
My deepest sympathy,
Marti Reidel (Gleason Lake Elementary)
It was truly a blessing that Cayden was part of this world for the past two weeks. I know there are no magic words that can comfort you or take the pain and hurt away of saying good bye to your baby boy, but know that we would say them to you if we could. Thinking of you and sending you love. Thank you so much for sharing Cayden with us, We love you three and will always have a place in our hearts for him.
Melis & Pete
Dear Paige & Scott...We want to express our deep sorrow in the loss of Cayden. But, we also want to express our deep sense of pride in the way you both handled this situation. You showed Love,Caring,
Sensitivity,Maturity and most of all STRENGTH.
We love you and are thinking of you,
Aunt Fran and Uncle Steve
I know there is nothing I can say that will take away the grief you are feeling. Just know that you both are incredibly special and I agree with others who said that Cayden was loved in a few short weeks more than most people receive in a lifetime.
What a special baby! I know that my life has been forever changed by Cayden and the journey the three of you had together. My thoughts are with you and I am sending lots of love your way.
Emily Cherniack
Paige and Scott,
We are so sorry for your loss. Your amazing blog captured this journey of love and pain and gave us perspective on what is important. We hope that the support of friends and family continue to give you strength.
Helen and Rick Siegel
Paige and Scott,
I can't begin to imagine the emotions you have to deal with. I am so heartbroken for you and the loss of your little Cayden. I pray that your family and friends continue to surround you with love and support to get through this difficult time. God bless you both.
Sincerely,
Lacy Litton
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful son. We only worked together a short time at MJDS, so I don't know if you remember me, but I began reading your blog after we were informed of your situation at school. I am awed by your strength and courage, and wanted you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Becka Steinberg
Scott and Paige,
Your story is heartbreaking. We're thinking of you and sending our deepest condolences.
Sahil & Katie
Scott and Paige,
I have been struggling for any words to convey my feelings, thoughts, etc. toward you and toward Cayden in all of this. He was clearly an amazing being to have touched so many, so deeply in such a short time. There is no way for me to imagine what you have been and are going through as you continue to say good bye and heal from this loss. What a beautiful thing that the three of you shared a few blinks of time together on this plane.
With my love and deep respect for your willingness to share some of your precious feelings with others.
Cara
Paige and Scott,
I'm sorry for not reaching out to you before now. Paige, I saw your parents at services on Friday and let them know I'd be in touch. My heart goes out to you. May the much too short time you had with Cayden and the memories you have of him continue to be a blessing for you.
Rabbi Saks
i am so sorry about your little cayden. it breaks my heart. we lost our little boy silas orion exactly 5 months ago today. its so sad and not fair. just know you have a whole community who are here to support you through this.
sending much love your way...
xo
Lani
Dear Paige and Scott,
You know Paige, you were always a favorite of my dads. I have just heard of your sad news through Abby..I find no words that are enough or adequate. After reading your blog I still have tears stinging my eyes... You and Scott are so brave.
Cayden was very blessed to have had such special parents.
I know, David, Lorraine and Kevin send you their love too.
Love, Debbie and Ed
David, Lorraine and Kevin Mark
I just came across your blog.. I am so so sorry for the loss of Cayden.. Our stories are a little similar. I lost my beautiful twin boys at 12days old. They too were premature, born at 24wks.. I too have a website and am writing the full story.. It is so hard, I am having trouble finishing it.. I will get there though and would love for you to have a look if you feel you can. www.taiteandseth.webs.com Again I am so sorry for your loss. I can understand some of what you have been through.. Love Abby
I just want to stop by and say that I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Cayden. I will keep you all in my prayers as you walk on this path with your little angel.
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