I'll be the first to admit that my relationship with god, or the idea of a god, has been pretty shaky since Cayden was born and died. But this morning's devastating news has pretty much solidified my feelings. Don't get me wrong, I was never the type to believe that god meddled in individual lives, never really prayed for specific things for me, but at one point I had some sense that there was a larger picture and perhaps this thing called god was in control. I've never done well with comments like, "God chose you to be Cayden's parents" or "God meant for this to happen" or "God has a plan for you". They're not comforting to me and they just don't jive with my experience.
What the hell am I talking about? I'm talking about this. Mirne and Craig just lost their third beautiful baby, Jet. Don't tell me there's a god, don't tell me this was meant to be. I am heartbroken for these wonderful people who are living in a hell I cannot fathom. I am crying for them and for Freyja, Kees, and Jet.
Please don't comment here. Instead, I wish you'd visit Mirne and Craig and tell them how sorry you are that they've lost three babies, how you wish this nightmare was just that. And I'm comfortable that others have different views of god, but I'm in no mood to hear them today.
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I've had some issues with god, too, so it's good to hear you talk about yours! After we lost Annie, I read a book by rabbi kuschner, "when bad things happen to good people," that I found incredibly helpful. He basically says that sh!t happens to everyone, but not because god wishes it. He lost a son to a terrible illness in his teens. Might be worth reading! I don't think it's in print anymore, but I got my copy on amazon regardless.
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