My silence here is the result of several factors, the most obvious being that my days and nights are completely filled with Sev. I wouldn't want it any other way, and I'm trying to savor each moment because it really does go by so, so fast.
This blog was initially created as a way to keep distant friends and family informed of the goings on of our little family. After Cayden's birth and death, it naturally became a place to connect with other babylost mamas, remember Cayd, and to share my grief journey. With Buggy's conception and rocky pregnancy, it also became a way to chronicle his journey to life on the outside. Now that Sev is here, I'm a bit confused as to what this blog should be. On the one hand, there is still a desire for us to keep our friends and family caught up on our family, especially now that Sev is here. But I'm hesitant to do so, as I know how difficult it can be for the babylost to be deluged with all things new baby. Yet there will still be many times where the focus is on grieving Cayd, whose absence is more profound now than ever, as we live each day with a little boy and wonder what it would've been like had his big brother lived.
Maybe it's a good thing that I have no time to write, since I'm not sure exactly what to write.
14 comments:
Sev is such a sweetie. I'm sure that whatever you decide to write, when you feel the time is right, will be perfect.
What a beautiful boy! And I love his "Little Brother" shirt. I am glad that you are enjoying every minute, and yes it does go fast! Whenever and whatever you decide to write will be OK, there is no right or wrong here. But just know that we will be checking in and will be ready to share with you whatever you decide to share with us.
Karen
Write what u feel! I know others who have lost children will see ur blog as hope for the future. U can continue to honor Cayden as u grow more and more in love w/ Sev. Ur feelings are so normal for the loss u and Scott suffered. Cayden is up there smiling down, and I know so proud of Sev! Spring is coming, and when u see a ladybug, well, u know....
I've been stunned into silence too...so honored to walk this journey with you, whether blogging or not.
To me, this blog is about you and your family and the bumpy road you are traveling. Sure I only came to know it (and you) through our shared grief but we are so much more. And your blog reflects that. I'll be glad to read whatever you share, especially when you include pictures of "little brother". Adorable!!
what a beautiful pic. he is amazing. i can only imagine what it feels like now that you have your perfect little guy but are still mourning your first. cayden will always be with you and this blog is the tribute to him. do what feels right and natural and know that we are all still here with you on this journey no matter what. xo
hey is that the suit I got him? So gorgeous! glad to see him in it.
i'm here for the long haul, whatever you write or don't write.
love you. love both your boys.
xo
oh man, he is so, so cute! thinking of you lots. of course you are fully immersed in new-baby-land. don't stress, you'll write when you're ready. as for what this space should be, nothin' to say you couldn't have multiple blogs for sharing in different ways. however you handle it, this space is for you. xo
no matter where you write, you know I'm always thinking about you and your family.
lots of love
I hear you Paige. I started my blog to write about losing Morgan. I decided I couldn't keep up with two blogs and retitled so I could include my pregnancy, and now share about Hunter too, but rarely have time to write anything!
Sev is too cute and I love the onesie. I want one for Hunter, but haven't come across one yet.
sending you lots of love paige. your boys are precious, always holding them and you. this is your place, however you need it to be...
xoxo
sorry that last comment was from me!
What a beautiful boy ! I'm glad I get the chance to see him. Thank you, Paige.
It most be so difficult for you to feel those two such juxtaposed feelings. It sounds like you are really being strong though, and living each moment for Sev. Congratulations.
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